Shattered Dreams
by loose_connections

Disclaimer: Everything but the story does not belong to me

Author's Note: I realised not many people like to write fics on Rinoa's point of 
view...so here I am... and the storyline has CHANGED COMPLETELY...and sweet 
pretty Rinoa has changed...oh yea baby... lets ROCK!

"Go in through the narrow gate, because the gate to hell is wide and the roads 
that lead to it is easy, and there are many who travel it. But the gate to life 
is narrow and the way that leads to it is hard, and there are few people who 
find it" Luke 13:24


They say I'm the Queen of the world. I'm starting to believe it.

There are days I lose myself in their praise and blind myself to their wrongs. I 
forget that they were Galbadians...they were responsible for my father's death. 
No, that's not quite right, I should say the man I thought was my father. He 
was, in every way but biologically; hence my current situation.

I grew up privileged, content with who I was and my position in life. Yet in 
these past months I have gone from a a Galbadian General's daughter to SeeD to 
Squall's girlfriend to an amatuer sorceress, all too fast for me to fully 
comprehend it. Is it any wonder I've lost track of who I am? People pull me in 
all directions at all times, telling me how to dress and act, what to say and 
whom to say it to.  

It's not so different from school, I suppose. Everyone wanted a piece of me 
then, too. I was the prettiest girl at the Garden. I never asked for popularity, 
but it found me easily. Through it all I knew who my true friends were, though. 
I wish I had such certainty now. 

There are times I long for the innocence I once had and never appreciated until 
it was gone. All I have now is a constant dread of the future and what it may 
hold for me, for the planet I love, for my brother...Gods, it's strange to call 
him that! I spent much of the last ten years believing I was an only child. To 
find out that not only did I have a brother but that he was my enemy shook my 
beliefs more than anything before or since. Well, almost anything before.... 

Just saying his name sends chills down my spine and raises hairs on my neck, all 
at once. The coldness in his eyes when he first made his threat...I believe he 
would have killed me in those early days, had Balamb SeeDs not come to save me. 
Common enemies create odd alliances and ours, though tenuous, served some 
unfathomable purpose.

A pity we are now enemies. 

I saw him in the balcony as I gave my speech today. It was not a trick of the 
light, of that I am sure. His eyes were the same, cold and dark as the steel in 
his hand. I can't say with certainty that the click I heard was a round slipping 
into the chamber, but I can't imagine what else it could have been. I glanced 
away for a moment; when I looked back he was gone, as I knew he would be. His 
only other option was something I'd rather not ponder. 

Yet ponder it I must. If Seifer and I are enemies, then there is a great chance 
I have compromised my ideals for my life and become that which I so 
despise...and I am unwilling to accept that. So I will play their game for now, 
and when they least expect it I will show them what it truly means to be a 
Sorceress. I'll prove, once and for all, that I am Queen of the World , not a 
puppet for them to control. 

I pray I live that long. 

Author's note: Ok....this is the part where Rinoa gets reaaally diabolic...read 
on...

But I guess its no toughie... to kill Seifer with or without the help of my 
fellow friends. Squall, he's a fickle one... its like there are two Squalls 
inside him. One Squall is the angelic one... afraid to kill his playmate...his 
best war buddy. The other Squall would be the diabolic one. He wants to avenge 
those innocent victims that Seifer had destroyed.

Zell, Quistis, Selphie, Irvine and Edea... I think they would walk whatever path 
Squall has chosen for them, after all... Squall is their 'Great One' in their 
pathetic wimpy lives.

You must be pondering why I am so negative towards them. Easy. They disgust me. 
They follow Squall like aimless dogs, get fooled by his so called 'wise' 
decision. Let me tell you, Squall is the sort that gloats over the victory and 
he gets a swollen head three times the size of an elephant. Ever since he 
defeated Ultimecia, he has been a totally different person...more swell-headed 
than Seifer. I stopped loving him then. Another point to point out - I simply 
feel disgusted by his jealousy. I look at other men and he beats up the men into 
pulp. Hmph! Wait till I give Headmaster Cid a wink... I hate to think what will 
happen next.

So I don't give a damn about Squall's permission to set out on this mission... 
if he doesn't support me, I'll go alone. After all... I'm a sorceress and he's 
just a human warrior.

HEY! Who's that girl sitting so close to Squall?! Damn you fucking slut! Before 
I knew it, a ball of fire shot out from my palm and right into the girl's face. 
HA! Go take a hike gurl! I EMERGE VICTORIOUS! Hmm... that agony on her 
face...that look of pain...ooo...I'm enjoying it! Ok...so I also get jealous. So 
sue me.

I think I'm sick...I actually gloat at other's pain and agony... I wasn't like 
that last time... I was sweet like an angel... nice in every aspect... now I'm 
like Lion Queen. Sheesh! I'm actually pondering at such silly question... I 
don't give a damn...for Squall has changed even more. 

Now its time to approach Squall... wow... look at his shocked face... I've been 
waiting to see that for five years... five long years.

"Err...Squall... hi?" I managed to say. I can't believe I was stuttering in 
front of the jerk who said I was too small for A cup bras!

"Hi... did you just see what happened? OMIGOD... she's not breathing!" Squall 
yelled, checking the girl's pulse.

" I saw nothing..." I whistled innocently.

"O well... a couple of Phoenix Down will do...is anything the problem?" Squall 
said, as he rummaged his pocket for a Phoenix Down.

"No...i mean yes... there is something I have to tell you...I am going 
o...err... killseiferandmakesurehediesofahorribledeath" I blurted out.

"Sure... you have my consent... take Zell and Quistis with you... and...do you 
have an extra Phoenix Down...all I have is three gils and some reciepts." Squall 
dug out some soil from his pocket.

I was dumbfounded. He was approving me. Now THAT was cruel. I didn't bother to 
walk. Instead, I casted to a Transport spell and transported myself into the 
weapon room.

Wow... there are so many weapons...I must have a good pick. After all, its 
Seifer I'm killing, not some dumb pillow. Guns...nah...Irvine's cup of tea. 
Flails...cross that out...too basic. Swords...no way...too heavy. 
Wands...hmm...now that's something fashionable. Wind Staff...Fire Staff...Water 
Staff...blah blah blah. AHA! Great Gospel...hmm...sounds nice...looks 
nice...I'LL TAKE IT!

If you haven't notice, I've been jumping to places here and there without 
walking... well ... because I can transport...so why walk? Hmm...Zell's helping 
himself to hotdogs again eh? Let me scare him...

Swinging the staff, a lightning spell hit his glass of water. 

PLINK!

The glass broke and water splashed all over the place. Zell turned around and 
saw me grabbing my stomach, laughing my intestines out.

"RINOA! THAT AIN'T FUUNY!" Zell yelled.

"Oh, c'mon! Can't you take a little joke?" I yelled back, still laughing.

"If I couldn't, I would have beat the living hell out of you!" Zell replied, 
pants all wet.

I walked towards Zell, stared at his almost transparent pants, gave a whistle 
and pulled him by the collar to find Quistis. I transported us to the 
Classrooms, it took a long time, considered the fact Zell was weighing like ten 
tons...exactly the weight of hot dogs the cafeteria lady ordered this morning.

"OH QUUUUISTIS!" I yelled.

No reply. 

"OH QUUUUUUUUUUUUISTIS!" I yelled again, tugging Zell's collar tightly, being 
the impatient sort.

A slender figure walked out from the Instructor's room. Quistis. 

"Grab your whip! We're going on a jooooourney!" I yelled, tugged Quistis by the 
hair as I summoned a transport GF, Kero, and hopped on it, and we zoomed right 
into Seifer's domain.

"What do you call us for?! I was in a middle of a Instructor test... Headmaster 
Cid gets edgy when you make him wait! " Quistis grumbled.

" Well...consider yourself lucky...you hate to see how I react when someone 
makes me WAIT!" I yelled, tugging Zell's collar even tighter, nearly throwing 
him overboard.

"OOPS! Whoa...sorry dood. Okay, serious business now. Squall let me summon you 
guys-" The duo groaned. "to help me in the assasination of Seifer."

"Seifer... isn't he your brother? Why do you want to kill him... for insurance?" 
Quistis asked.

"No you dimmwit! For being my enemy. No one is going to make it alive for three 
days to be considered as Rinoa's enemy." I replied, giving her the most evil 
smile I've got.

Kero soon lowered down onto a piece of land, near a battlefield.

Zell, Quistis and I got down from Kero. So...this is where Seifer has been 
hiding all along... you'll pay...Seifer...you'll PAY! We advanced into the 
battlefield. It seems like the bloodshed was over. Galbadian soldiers and some 
unknown soldiers lie dead on the battlefield. No sign of Seifer... 
dead...dead...dead...alive...but not Seifer...go to hell! I swung him my 
mightiest kick and it was game over for that poor fellow.

"My dear sister, you have changed a lot, haven't you?" a voice that I could 
remember from anywhere came from behind me.

Seifer.

I swirled around. He stood there, motionless, just carrying a smirk on his face. 
I drew out my staff. Zell and Quistis armed themselves. It was time.

It was time for battle.

I cast a double barrier spell on everyone. After all, safety first! Quistis did 
a double somersault and swung her whip onto Seifer. Seifer, agile as a monkey 
grabbed the whip just in time and pulled it towards him. I couldn't let him harm 
my friends. I threw myself towards him, he fell back and I punched his face. So 
many years of hatred, all let out by this punches. Suddenly, I felt like I was 
the Rinoa from the past again.

I was back. No... Rinoa is back.

I returned to my graceful form. It was Zell's turn. He gave Seifer a Mach Kick, 
followed by a Booya, and Dolphin Blow. Seifer let go of the whip and Quistis 
slumped onto the floor unconscious. I cast a revive on Quistis. A fiery phoenix 
flew into Quistis body. Quistis remained unconscious. She was gone...forever.

I dropped to my knees. The Quistis I knew wouldn't give up so easily. I looked 
at Seifer laughing at Quistis' death. It reminded me of someone... it reminded 
me of...myslef. I dug my face into my palms. Quistis... she had to revive. 
Looking at Zell fighting like a mad dog, I felt ashamed. I couldn't stand up. I 
was not accustomed to grieve. Usually, I would just walk away, but now... i felt 
like I needed someone to comfort me, to be there for me.

Squall.

But he wasn't here. A tear flowed down my cheek. I was crying. Maybe I was 
destinied to cause my friends death... I wasn't sure. Deep down inside of me, I 
wanted to help Zell, kill Seifer, but my body was too weak. I was in need of 
him.

I'm getting weaker and weaker... maybe I'm dying? My heart beat feels weaker... 
I can't breathe. I'm in pain. Its stopping...goodbye world, goodbye balamb 
garden, goodbye Squall, goodbye SeeDs, goodbye my friends, have faith in 
me...see you all in the other realm...goodbye reader...this is the end of my 
story... so long...

p.s. go to hell seifer


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